Pei Chen’s Blog

I just called back home and get to know my son still sick. i am starting to blame myself for not breastfeeding him while in maternity. i am a bad mother…i think. after reached 6 months, he is sick all the time…i guess more than 5 times, mean once per month he will go and visit doctor. that is bad…. i am wondering what is happening????? not clean? not hygene? weak? not enough vitamin? no caring from mothers??

what should i doooooooooo

冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很后面
拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见
最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐
回忆的画面
在荡着秋千
梦开始不甜
你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
又何必去改变你走过的世界
你用你的指尖
阻止我说再见
想象你在身边
在完全失去之前
你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋
这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现
这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

第一、「學習認錯」。
人常常不肯認錯，凡事都說是別人的錯，
認為自己才是對的，其實不認錯就是一個錯。
認錯的對象可以是父母、朋友、社會大眾、佛祖，
甚至向兒女或是對我不好的人認錯，
自己不但不會少了什麼，反而顯得你有度量。
學習認錯是美好的，是一個大修行。

第二、「學習柔和」。
人的牙齒是硬的，舌頭是軟的，到了人生的最後，
牙齒都掉光了，舌頭卻不會掉，所以要柔軟，
人生才能長久，硬反而吃虧。
心地柔軟了，是修行最大的進步。
一般形容執著的人說，你的心、你的性格很冷、很硬，
像鋼鐵一樣。
如果我們像禪門說的調息、調身、調心，
慢慢調伏像野馬、像猴子的這顆心，令它? X軟，
人生才能活得更快樂、更長久。

第三、「學習生忍」。
這世間就是忍一口氣，風平浪靜，退一步海闊天空；
忍，萬事都能消除。忍就是會處理、 會化解，
用智慧、能力讓大事化小、小事化無。
各位要生活、要生存、要生命，有了忍，
可以認清世間的好壞、善惡、是非，甚至接受它。

第四、「學習溝通」。
缺乏溝通，就會產生是非、爭執與誤會。
現在中國大陸、香港和台灣，
兩岸三地最重要的就是溝通，
相互了解、相互體諒、相互幫助，
大家都是龍兄虎弟，互相爭執、不溝通怎麼能和平呢？

第五、「學習放下」。
人生像一只皮箱，需要用的時候提起，
不用的時就把它放下，應放下的時候，卻不放下，
就像拖著沉重的行李，無法自在。
人生的歲月有限，認 錯、尊重、包容才能讓人接受，
放下才自在啊！

第六、「學習感動」。
我們看到人家得好處，要歡喜；
看到好人好事，要能感動。
感動是一個愛心、菩薩心、菩提心，
在我幾十年的歲月裡，有許多事情、語言感動了我，
所以我也很努力的想辦法讓別人感動。

第七、「學習生存」。
為了生存，我要維護身體健康，
身體健康不但對自己有利，也讓朋友、家人放心，
所以也是孝親的行為。

"If  you think you can, sure you can!!"

That’s the sentence i used during my university time. I used it for encourage/motivate/push me to move further in my study life, to believe if you wish/want to do something, sure you can if you want:)

This is pretty easy for studylife. But this is not the case in working life, you got depend on so many ppls to make your project successful. anyone in your team can be your failure points. Anyone in your team can make you disappointed. hahaha, it is not easy to become a coordinator or an integrator.

For my project, I did it. But, there was some minor failure point which almost cause my project delayed. I cried and cried why they didnt do their work better and why they didnt inform me earlier.

hihihihihihi, i was so mad until I shoot back them. DOn’t care who you are. YOu are wasted my effort and time to go through all the processes again???????

Come come come!!!! Take a look of my youngest brother dance performance in SG!!! Huray..

Cheng, I am proud of you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=savWGsAmU5A

this year, my birthday is so calm, no surprise, didnt have happy feeling or sad feeling. stay in the middle of the mood. time pass so fast and i can’t even figure out what i need in my life. I have 1 child with a happy family…:) consider yes… unless my father is not here. in morning, i like to flash back the past including what had happening for the past 2-3 years after my graduation.

My birthday, I am still in the office, scratching my head to figure out how to close my AR (action required), how to get my things done effectively….I got a feeling that I am having a small head with a big hat…hahah, understand what i mean? i believe you kknow. Yeah, i am handling a proj that i feel i m no ideas on it. I am still not capable to handle such a big proj.

my birthday 29 years old. i was waiting for it to come…but then, when it reaches that day, i got no feeling at all. why! why! the kiddo feeling of having a birthday celebration is not there…..still got 4 hours to receive birthday greeting……. which i believe i will not get any after this…. did my Father knows abt it? Will he happy for me for what i am today? Can i consider i am successful??? i think no…i think i am just requesting too much and make my life so busy..ehmmm….. comtinue to close my ARs give my company…Bye.. Happy birthday to me.

all my writting gone!!!!! I wanna go home!!!!!! so bored here!!!!!

yeah! I admit that this is a very good trip for me. I learn and know many things. I get to know many peoles here. Handsome guy, fate ppl, big big taukeh, big taukeh, dominant people, workaholic people. hihihi…. my writting gone la….need to rewrite again…sh*t

i have few days with sadness here. I am learning to let go something which is not mine. I have decided something which i got to practise practise practise for 21 times. Then, it will be success.

Just another lonely night here…. who will be thinking of me? I think may be 1 may be no.

I miss home, miss everything I have in my country, everything I have now in my life. Just scare i can’t even hold them and they just leave me behind without saying a ‘bye’.

In here, I have to say hi to everybody but I am just too lazy to open  my mouth to know those peoples in deep. Is this consider as ‘no manners’? I guess so…. No people will think that I am friendly. Hahahaha…. I am still learning. But then I don’t feel to learn it.

2 yrs ago, I felt I am young, young enough to play everything, young enough to not care anyone in my life. But then, I am just realize that I lost many precious time in my life. I lost my father, I lost my chance to be someone and lost the chance to go further. No matter how, my birthday is reaching and I am getting older. argghhhhhsssssss. GETTING OLDER!!!!!!!!

Am I too old to write blog? seems like this fun thing is not for old woman!! Last but not least, I just want to advice myself to put down a lot of things from my mind. But just wonder why my mind is still blur and not feeling well these few days. I felt I am not happy here! Is it because of work pressure? or because of I miss home….. I found I no longer can travel so far away from my son. I love you my son. Are you thinking of me now? I hope that you will know that I love you so much and you will treat your mother as nice as possible.

hihi……. mom is going to buy something for your:P

I am here….,. Hello, Manila. I will need to stay 12 nights here. The first night is the most relax for me. I will be busy/tension in the following nights. Training, then later presentation. Duno how many hairs i have lost. This is the way we can get better salary.

i guess so!

Pei Luan, Boon Ton, Boon Cheng, My mother,,,, please stay healthy forever.

My husband, my son,,,,, you are always in my mind. Please stay happier and healthier than me.

I will go to Philippines this coming Saturday. Hmm…. what is the feeling I have???? I like to travel, to everywhere…. not particular to where… but then I m no longer myself alone in this world.. I have my family, my son and my lovely hubby. Sooooooo, quite worry abt my son especially. He is sick now!!!! Sigh, he had been see 4 to 5 times doctor already…. so kesian… I admit that I am not a good mother. Busy like hell in work!!

Back to Philipines, I never been there, and I hope that I can see a different view of this world.. and come back here safely. 2 weeks there, feel like hmm…. duno what to do there unless working working and working

After US and Philippines, I believe Hong Kong will be my next travel destination (from my own pocket).